The Funeral

The Funeral

deep in the depths of hopelessness,
there's a tiny light that lives...
but somebody snuffed it,
and scared light away.
to let the blood-veins flow,
oh god, the joy it would bring,
if my soul could sing again.
one more breath of fresh air,
and then none,
abandoned by all those i loved...
shoved in a casket of eternal dark.
pain hits the mark, dead on...
bulls-eye.
can't cry, when all you feel is numb.
swallow me whole, with big gulps,
so quick to forget it all.
escape to a sanctuary that will never exist,
and make up stories to erase the reality
that will always be.
grow up. shut up. put up. wake up.
or give up.
you'll never be good enough for their world,
so lay down and wallow..
.lay down in that wee hour,
and shower yourself with false hope again.
didn't you know you weren't meant for this place?
your face...just another blank slate,
a slate that longs to age,
longs to disintegrate, and oh, how it will!
you can't stop time, miss invincible.
give yourself four more years,
you won't last long after.
bring on the armageddon,
'cause you're a sick fool, baby.
hitchike a ride to hell, because there is no heaven.
flee this purgatory of disgrace,
fuck the human race,
run away and leave this place
.stop the war, end the fight,
because nothing that's ever right,
will suffice.
you can't ever win, if you don't know how to play the game.
a universe of cheaters, waiting to chew your brains.
go to bed, you coward, and rest your weeping head.
throw away all those things that they said...
because you know your heart will flip-flop in the night,
shaking you with rage, because you were right...all along.
such a sad conspiracy...you poor, broken angel.
remind me again, who stole your wings?
too many names...but i remember,
they each took a feather until you had none.
darling, you can no longer fly.
please tell me why this is allowed to happen!
but what's done is done, now be gone with you.
you're not welcome here. you never were.
that's it, the end. au revoir, sweetheart.
i'll be waiting for you on the other side of darkness.
sweet, bittersweet darkness.
and with a heavy sigh, i'm signing out...
goodbye.



(Originally posted on March 25, 2008, @ darkalchemystudios.deviantart.com)

© Caitlin Blair Cogar